Just watched Leap Year. It was a sweet romantic comedy.
Just realised how pretty is Ireland. Definitely want to visit there during one of the Spring. But will I ever get the chance? When all the exams are in Spring. Seriously, I feel like strangling those people who made spring seems like an aweful season.
Te quiero
Definitely intoxicated by spanish music right now. My gosh!! I just realised like how spanish songs can be very very nice and romantic!!
Found out about a few spanish singers and listened to their songs. Love them!
Recommended to everyone!
Found out about a few spanish singers and listened to their songs. Love them!
Recommended to everyone!
Going to church
I realised that going to church or any church activities is quite burdensome to some somehow. I also don't know why. And when they feel that it's bothersome, they will feel that it's the unnecessary part of their life.
I'm not to say I'm perfect. But the thing is, going to church has become like a very important part of my life. Like it just doesn't feel right when not going. It's not just because that it's a compulsory thing in the Catholic "law" but then rather, it's like I couldn't live without going to the Holy Mass. And to compare what the Lord has given me, how can an hour a week be compared to? It's like not even 1 millionth of what He has given me.
I'm not judging here. But then, it's just a bit saddening when you see like those people seemed like lost but yet they feel that the Lord is not the one who can give them a sense of direction. And it's a bit saddening when you see how people are slowly drifting away from Him. Couldn't say anything because did that before and the response I got was, of course, regretful. I'm not a very good Christian because I give up quite easily. A super bad example am I. But when you get the lukewarm response I got, surely, your stand will somehow waver also.
One thing that I believe in is that only in Him can I rely on. I mean, seriously, with my normal behavior, it's definitely a wonder I can reach where I am now. I don't study very hard and if not for His grace, I would definitely failed like countless times. But then, He's the one who pulled me through and given me so many chances. Hahahaha...in a way. Like what my second brother described me as similar to my eldest brother - that is I seriously can think of all sorts of things to escape from studying and that the only good thing we both do very well is call "up there" and "request" for passing from the Holy Father. I feel guilty also for taking advantage of that but then, I do try my best also. Even though my best seems a bit like the least for some people, but I did. At least the effort that I put to stop myself from drifting away from my studies at times. Hihihi.. But the main point here is, even though I'm a wretch, He still gives me what I need and loves me for who I am. So what I can I do to give thanks to Him? By just merely spending one hour every week with Him.
I'm definitely not complaining cause at times I feel that it's a like a daughter-father date kinda thing. Imagine...going out with your dad. That's like irreplaceable.
I'm not to say I'm perfect. But the thing is, going to church has become like a very important part of my life. Like it just doesn't feel right when not going. It's not just because that it's a compulsory thing in the Catholic "law" but then rather, it's like I couldn't live without going to the Holy Mass. And to compare what the Lord has given me, how can an hour a week be compared to? It's like not even 1 millionth of what He has given me.
I'm not judging here. But then, it's just a bit saddening when you see like those people seemed like lost but yet they feel that the Lord is not the one who can give them a sense of direction. And it's a bit saddening when you see how people are slowly drifting away from Him. Couldn't say anything because did that before and the response I got was, of course, regretful. I'm not a very good Christian because I give up quite easily. A super bad example am I. But when you get the lukewarm response I got, surely, your stand will somehow waver also.
One thing that I believe in is that only in Him can I rely on. I mean, seriously, with my normal behavior, it's definitely a wonder I can reach where I am now. I don't study very hard and if not for His grace, I would definitely failed like countless times. But then, He's the one who pulled me through and given me so many chances. Hahahaha...in a way. Like what my second brother described me as similar to my eldest brother - that is I seriously can think of all sorts of things to escape from studying and that the only good thing we both do very well is call "up there" and "request" for passing from the Holy Father. I feel guilty also for taking advantage of that but then, I do try my best also. Even though my best seems a bit like the least for some people, but I did. At least the effort that I put to stop myself from drifting away from my studies at times. Hihihi.. But the main point here is, even though I'm a wretch, He still gives me what I need and loves me for who I am. So what I can I do to give thanks to Him? By just merely spending one hour every week with Him.
I'm definitely not complaining cause at times I feel that it's a like a daughter-father date kinda thing. Imagine...going out with your dad. That's like irreplaceable.
How much weight can I lose and gain in a very short time? Seriously, it surprises me as well. Like, no matter who I told this, they just wouldn't believe. Partly, it's really hart to believe that I actually lost 10kg in 3 months and gained 10kg in 3 months as well. I find it hard to believe as well.
The major reason for this is? ..The obvious would be whether I'm at home or not. Or it could be whether my mom's around to cook good food or not. Lol!!!
So here's the proof then. This proof cannot, however, show the 3 months thingy. Will get the proof soon next time.
See how the cheeks puffed up?
Muahahahaha.....proud of this photo. Showed off how much I lost!! Yay!!
The major reason for this is? ..The obvious would be whether I'm at home or not. Or it could be whether my mom's around to cook good food or not. Lol!!!
So here's the proof then. This proof cannot, however, show the 3 months thingy. Will get the proof soon next time.
See how the cheeks puffed up?
Muahahahaha.....proud of this photo. Showed off how much I lost!! Yay!!
If My Heart Was a House - Owl City
Circle me and the needle moves gracefully
Back and forth
If my heart was a compass you'll be north
Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you all fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house you'd be home
--- If My Heart Was A House by Owl City
Been there, done that and definitely regret it.
It's not a big thing actually. Just went through my past and discovered all the stupid and useless "crushes" that I had. Seriously too many of them that I couldn't even remember them. Hahahahahaha...Can't blame me for my disloyalty.
Some of them i do remember very well and felt stupid for them.
One of them being one my classmates in high school. I actually had crush on him during Form 2 and through a series of event, he knew about it. And during Form 5, we became damn close that I told him yeah I did like him before. But, seriously, I really regret for even the slightest feelings I had for him now. I mean, I know about all his other sides which I didn't know and he's definitely not who I thought he's supposed to be.
Another one is somewhere quite near in the past but also definitely over. Well, at first, I really liked his character. But now that I looked back, wow, how stupid I was!! First of all, he's definitely not loyal as he proposed himself to be. And somehow, all his courting actions are really super disgusting somehow to me. So, yeah, basically it's all regrets now.
And then there's this another one whom I had crush for almost 10 years. Yeah, I know it's too long to be true. Well, it's partially true cause it's on-and-off kinda thing. He's not someone I regretted liking. He turned out to be a very nice person even till now. Super loves his girlfriend now. The only regret is I didn't become his girlfriend. Hahahahahahaha...So thick-skinned ar me! Lolz!
So, for now, all my crushes are like very lame crushes. Never last more than 2 days. Partly because I know for sure I won't settle down for them. And probably because I have decided that I will only go for those of chinese ascendance. Which makes the whole situation here a big NO NO cause all the people that i know here who are of chinese origin are er................Lolz!!! Let's just put it this way. They're either unavailable or unsuitable.
Some of them i do remember very well and felt stupid for them.
One of them being one my classmates in high school. I actually had crush on him during Form 2 and through a series of event, he knew about it. And during Form 5, we became damn close that I told him yeah I did like him before. But, seriously, I really regret for even the slightest feelings I had for him now. I mean, I know about all his other sides which I didn't know and he's definitely not who I thought he's supposed to be.
Another one is somewhere quite near in the past but also definitely over. Well, at first, I really liked his character. But now that I looked back, wow, how stupid I was!! First of all, he's definitely not loyal as he proposed himself to be. And somehow, all his courting actions are really super disgusting somehow to me. So, yeah, basically it's all regrets now.
And then there's this another one whom I had crush for almost 10 years. Yeah, I know it's too long to be true. Well, it's partially true cause it's on-and-off kinda thing. He's not someone I regretted liking. He turned out to be a very nice person even till now. Super loves his girlfriend now. The only regret is I didn't become his girlfriend. Hahahahahahaha...So thick-skinned ar me! Lolz!
So, for now, all my crushes are like very lame crushes. Never last more than 2 days. Partly because I know for sure I won't settle down for them. And probably because I have decided that I will only go for those of chinese ascendance. Which makes the whole situation here a big NO NO cause all the people that i know here who are of chinese origin are er................Lolz!!! Let's just put it this way. They're either unavailable or unsuitable.
Own place in the world
Definitely should be studying but being bugged by so many things.
Was looking through the facebook updates and noticed that my high school friends have gone to Damai Beach Resort and they were all saying how nice it was and all. As I think about it, eventually I got depressed by how lonely I am.
Then I kept on thinking and thinking. Yup, definitely many stupid thoughts came and so were some regretful memories.
Thought that I couldn't fit in with this group of friends because we don't have same interests and thought that somehow will find friends that I can communicate. Ah well, I did find but unfortunately, I got depressed thinking again. Cause these friends that I've found will eventually separate from me as we all came from different states. Depressed that eventually I will have to go back to the place where I couldn't find my own place.
Back to my previous saying - will find friends that I can communicate. Well then, I seriously doubt that now. Maybe when I start working? Or even when I start working, my routine will be just going to work and go home, then go work and go home and just that? Oh, how depressing thoughts!!!
Then, I realise, I guess everyone has their own place in the world. Will I ever find my own place in people's hearts in Kuching? Or my place is in somewhere else? Where else? Definitely depressing thoughts. Not really depressing but pathetic. Hahahaha...
Of course, I know that I am the one to blame for the very few friends that I have. Partly because of my own attitude and all. Definitely "killed" some friendships I had because of my insensitiveness and me being plain me. When I tried making up, guess it's definitely too late.
Is it that you have to let go of being yourself in order to find your place in this world? Can the world be so cruel? Or, it's just that some people just have the luck of having lots and lots of friends where as some just stuck in leading solitary life? Unfair huh? Well, I seriously don't know.
Was looking through the facebook updates and noticed that my high school friends have gone to Damai Beach Resort and they were all saying how nice it was and all. As I think about it, eventually I got depressed by how lonely I am.
Then I kept on thinking and thinking. Yup, definitely many stupid thoughts came and so were some regretful memories.
Thought that I couldn't fit in with this group of friends because we don't have same interests and thought that somehow will find friends that I can communicate. Ah well, I did find but unfortunately, I got depressed thinking again. Cause these friends that I've found will eventually separate from me as we all came from different states. Depressed that eventually I will have to go back to the place where I couldn't find my own place.
Back to my previous saying - will find friends that I can communicate. Well then, I seriously doubt that now. Maybe when I start working? Or even when I start working, my routine will be just going to work and go home, then go work and go home and just that? Oh, how depressing thoughts!!!
Then, I realise, I guess everyone has their own place in the world. Will I ever find my own place in people's hearts in Kuching? Or my place is in somewhere else? Where else? Definitely depressing thoughts. Not really depressing but pathetic. Hahahaha...
Of course, I know that I am the one to blame for the very few friends that I have. Partly because of my own attitude and all. Definitely "killed" some friendships I had because of my insensitiveness and me being plain me. When I tried making up, guess it's definitely too late.
Is it that you have to let go of being yourself in order to find your place in this world? Can the world be so cruel? Or, it's just that some people just have the luck of having lots and lots of friends where as some just stuck in leading solitary life? Unfair huh? Well, I seriously don't know.
重色轻友
Never believed in this phrase but seriously do now. I don't know whether those involved in this are aware of what they are doing or they just don't realise it?
Hmmm...big question. Anyway, shouldn't be my problem anyway.
Nemel by byt muj problem.
Don't know correct or not my czech. Haih.......czech test next week. Physio exam in less than 3 weeks. And,...I still have time to comment on so many things....Haih........
Seriously, i wish there's a lock that can lock my concentration in my body and focus just on my physio. Sigh...............
Very bad...seriously bad........
Hmmm...big question. Anyway, shouldn't be my problem anyway.
Nemel by byt muj problem.
Don't know correct or not my czech. Haih.......czech test next week. Physio exam in less than 3 weeks. And,...I still have time to comment on so many things....Haih........
Seriously, i wish there's a lock that can lock my concentration in my body and focus just on my physio. Sigh...............
Very bad...seriously bad........
Just don't understand
So it's that time of the year again, where everyone talks about airtickets and all.
So we were talking about all the different airlines and all. Then, cause my mom doesnt allow me to use a particular airline because of the security, so I told my friends about that.
Well, one of my very "smart" friend asked me quite sarcastically, how do I know about all these news. So I said here and there. Then she looked as if like I was talking nonsense. Ah well, yeah I was talking nonsense.
Hello? If there's such a cheap airline and offers good stuffs, wouldn't i want to grab it? Sometimes, these people i just totally can't understand. if you don't believe, it's your own prob. what? "I also didn't meet anything when I took the plane myself..." Seriously, if she was hurt in any other way, would she be still here? Well, duh..., no right?
Anyway, whatever she wants to do, it's her choice. Tired of talking to these nonsense people. When the other girl suddenly commented, I just said, "I seriously don't know but that's what I heard."
Man!! Seriously, I don't understand why these people like couldn't get into their heads that I'm not asking them not to use the airline also. I'm just not taking it myself. And, for goodness's sake, it's not even their company. Why do they need to defend it so much? Crap!
So we were talking about all the different airlines and all. Then, cause my mom doesnt allow me to use a particular airline because of the security, so I told my friends about that.
Well, one of my very "smart" friend asked me quite sarcastically, how do I know about all these news. So I said here and there. Then she looked as if like I was talking nonsense. Ah well, yeah I was talking nonsense.
Hello? If there's such a cheap airline and offers good stuffs, wouldn't i want to grab it? Sometimes, these people i just totally can't understand. if you don't believe, it's your own prob. what? "I also didn't meet anything when I took the plane myself..." Seriously, if she was hurt in any other way, would she be still here? Well, duh..., no right?
Anyway, whatever she wants to do, it's her choice. Tired of talking to these nonsense people. When the other girl suddenly commented, I just said, "I seriously don't know but that's what I heard."
Man!! Seriously, I don't understand why these people like couldn't get into their heads that I'm not asking them not to use the airline also. I'm just not taking it myself. And, for goodness's sake, it's not even their company. Why do they need to defend it so much? Crap!
Time never waits.
Ever feel like banging yourself on the wall when you realise it's already 8pm and the whole day is gone without doing anything?
Definitely felt that for millions of times. Seriously, when I looked at the time, it's either 2 hours or 3 hours later than I thought. Man...This is seriously driving me mad.
Not long ago, I had like 1 month to my exam and now it's only less than 3 weeks. Shit!! How time flies!
Definitely felt that for millions of times. Seriously, when I looked at the time, it's either 2 hours or 3 hours later than I thought. Man...This is seriously driving me mad.
Not long ago, I had like 1 month to my exam and now it's only less than 3 weeks. Shit!! How time flies!
Personal Testimony 3
A person I personally feel guilty towards.
Known for almost 2 years.
Was very close at the beginning but somehow things took a turn and now I'm considered as an "enermy". Lol!! Probably not as bad, but if the world is divided into two - friends and enermy, I've been long kicked to the other side of "friends" part.
A very nice friend. Helpful. Taught me lots of things and helped me through my studies.
At the beginning, I had a lot of things to talk to him, but things changed because was busy with studies and didn't have quite a lot of personal things that crept into my mind so basically, I really don't have anything to talk to him about anymore. About studies, I seeked advise from my own mentors who were assigned to me. Basically, I was very much more comfortable with my mentors because hahahaha, one thing, they sometimes "manja" and "sayang" me. At least that's how I thought of them. Anyway, this friend of mine I was talking about, of course I couldn't do these things to him right? He's a guy afterall.
Things worsen when he thinks that I was being "bitchy" and like kinda ignored him. Personally, I don't have anything against him but somehow he just thinks like that. So yeah. That's how I ended from being in the "friends" side to the "enermies" side.
Of course, from time to time, we talked and exchanged greetings. But yeah, definitely, on the other side. Lol!!
Sometimes, I really feel guilty for not talking to him but then like I said I don't have anything to talk anymore. Then why did I have a lot to talk about before? One thing, i used to have a lot to talk to him about was because his ex-gf was my ex-roommate and I had this stupid "love/like" relationship problem which he knows about. Practically, I really trust him. However, he broke up with my friend and I got over my problem, so yeah, I basically don't have anything to talk anymore. The only thing I talk about now is cute guys and korean celebrities which of course he's not interested in. So, should I be blamed for my silence?
Conclusion: A friend that I do treasure but somehow thought otherwise. Wish him happiness and find (according to his criteria) a true friendship.
Known for almost 2 years.
Was very close at the beginning but somehow things took a turn and now I'm considered as an "enermy". Lol!! Probably not as bad, but if the world is divided into two - friends and enermy, I've been long kicked to the other side of "friends" part.
A very nice friend. Helpful. Taught me lots of things and helped me through my studies.
At the beginning, I had a lot of things to talk to him, but things changed because was busy with studies and didn't have quite a lot of personal things that crept into my mind so basically, I really don't have anything to talk to him about anymore. About studies, I seeked advise from my own mentors who were assigned to me. Basically, I was very much more comfortable with my mentors because hahahaha, one thing, they sometimes "manja" and "sayang" me. At least that's how I thought of them. Anyway, this friend of mine I was talking about, of course I couldn't do these things to him right? He's a guy afterall.
Things worsen when he thinks that I was being "bitchy" and like kinda ignored him. Personally, I don't have anything against him but somehow he just thinks like that. So yeah. That's how I ended from being in the "friends" side to the "enermies" side.
Of course, from time to time, we talked and exchanged greetings. But yeah, definitely, on the other side. Lol!!
Sometimes, I really feel guilty for not talking to him but then like I said I don't have anything to talk anymore. Then why did I have a lot to talk about before? One thing, i used to have a lot to talk to him about was because his ex-gf was my ex-roommate and I had this stupid "love/like" relationship problem which he knows about. Practically, I really trust him. However, he broke up with my friend and I got over my problem, so yeah, I basically don't have anything to talk anymore. The only thing I talk about now is cute guys and korean celebrities which of course he's not interested in. So, should I be blamed for my silence?
Conclusion: A friend that I do treasure but somehow thought otherwise. Wish him happiness and find (according to his criteria) a true friendship.
Sunrise
Was just randomly looking out the window when finally bored with studying. Saw this streak of light creeping through the dark sky. Wow! Not bad, I was thinking. It's quite pretty. And the wow part is that I actually did see sunrise. Hahahahaha...
After showering, came out, more visible orange light coming from my left side window. Super pretty. Was actually quite surprising how pretty sunrise in Prague can be.
And then a thought struck me. How awesome is He! He created all these amazing things. And then another thought - a new hope. Somehow, when I was looking at the sunrise, I couldn't help but think that there's new hope.
But seriously, the sunrise is really very pretty. Like when the light shone onto the tower opposite my apartment, the tower just seemed really pretty. Everything's covered in the orange light. So super pretty really!
After showering, came out, more visible orange light coming from my left side window. Super pretty. Was actually quite surprising how pretty sunrise in Prague can be.
And then a thought struck me. How awesome is He! He created all these amazing things. And then another thought - a new hope. Somehow, when I was looking at the sunrise, I couldn't help but think that there's new hope.
But seriously, the sunrise is really very pretty. Like when the light shone onto the tower opposite my apartment, the tower just seemed really pretty. Everything's covered in the orange light. So super pretty really!
Personal testimony 2
Known for more than a year.
Wasn't very sure about her the first time I met her. Hahaha..We met in the gym where we had PE. Didn't know who she was then. Didn't know the name as well. Guessed that she must be one of my mentors of whom I heard of from my friends that went for the meeting. Somehow, didn't meet her before school started so was a bit awkward the first meeting. Exchanged greetings and that's it.
After that, got closer because got to know her better. Super nice senior. Very supportive. Hihi...Figured me out quite fast enough to know that my heart usually flies off when I'm studying.
Happy for me when I finally started passing my anatomy tests.
Definitely a good friend God sent to me. Gave me a lot of advise. Guided me and still guiding me through my studies. Thankful that God sent me such a wonderful friend. Never did as well as her as a senior to my juniors. Sigh...
Super random person. Funny without realising herself.
super crazy about Korean celebrities. Very radical about the celebrity she likes. Hihihi..
A loyal and faithful Christian. Thank God we share the same faith.
Definitely wish that she'll be very successful and stay happy and faithful always.
Conclusion: One of the angels God sent to me to guide me through my studies just like Shu Yet in KTT.
Wasn't very sure about her the first time I met her. Hahaha..We met in the gym where we had PE. Didn't know who she was then. Didn't know the name as well. Guessed that she must be one of my mentors of whom I heard of from my friends that went for the meeting. Somehow, didn't meet her before school started so was a bit awkward the first meeting. Exchanged greetings and that's it.
After that, got closer because got to know her better. Super nice senior. Very supportive. Hihi...Figured me out quite fast enough to know that my heart usually flies off when I'm studying.
Happy for me when I finally started passing my anatomy tests.
Definitely a good friend God sent to me. Gave me a lot of advise. Guided me and still guiding me through my studies. Thankful that God sent me such a wonderful friend. Never did as well as her as a senior to my juniors. Sigh...
Super random person. Funny without realising herself.
super crazy about Korean celebrities. Very radical about the celebrity she likes. Hihihi..
A loyal and faithful Christian. Thank God we share the same faith.
Definitely wish that she'll be very successful and stay happy and faithful always.
Conclusion: One of the angels God sent to me to guide me through my studies just like Shu Yet in KTT.
Why? Why? Why? Why can't I concentrate?
You know, when it's finally a holiday which is of course super rare thing in Czech, I should really like start my engine to start studying. Instead, what I did for the past half day was, checking facebook, watching different videos, watching a few episodes of a series, dreaming, sleeping and so on and so forth. Excuse? Stress la..
Well, of course, even though I know that it's just an excuse for me not study, but I still couldn't stop my concentration from flying off to somewhere else while I was staring at the same page for a few hours. Man! I'm seriously dead. To imagine my final is just less than a month away, hmph..if I'm not dead by then, I should be half dead.
And then, when I know it's an excuse, I feel guilty then. Why oh why? When I feel guilty, the more pressure I put on myself. And still, I couldn't stop my mind from wandering off.
How come I don't have the same level of concentration as my friends? Why oh why?
Well, of course, even though I know that it's just an excuse for me not study, but I still couldn't stop my concentration from flying off to somewhere else while I was staring at the same page for a few hours. Man! I'm seriously dead. To imagine my final is just less than a month away, hmph..if I'm not dead by then, I should be half dead.
And then, when I know it's an excuse, I feel guilty then. Why oh why? When I feel guilty, the more pressure I put on myself. And still, I couldn't stop my mind from wandering off.
How come I don't have the same level of concentration as my friends? Why oh why?
Personal testimony 1 (just random, too bored)
Known for almost 3 years already.
Very close for a time then after, didn't talk much and happened a big quarrel.
Cold war for almost one semester. Finally forgive when helped me through an incident. Hihi...
Overall, a nice person. Helpful and yeah, even though I don't want to admit it, a good friend.
Taught me how to be sarcastic. Personally trained me every single day.
Likes to torture me mentally and verbally every day. Something is wrong if doesn't.
Always thinks that he's right but when he's in the wrong, tries to make up to you. (Hahahaha...that's how I torture him during the cold war..Muahahahaha)
Good cook and takes good care of house. Hihi..
Super long winded.
Super bossy. Very similar to a controlling ahjumma. Likes to scold me.
Likes to correct me and drill moral values into me. So super like a mother.
Wish him happiness and achieve his dreams.
Conclusion: "Hate to be stuck here with him" Lol!!
Very close for a time then after, didn't talk much and happened a big quarrel.
Cold war for almost one semester. Finally forgive when helped me through an incident. Hihi...
Overall, a nice person. Helpful and yeah, even though I don't want to admit it, a good friend.
Taught me how to be sarcastic. Personally trained me every single day.
Likes to torture me mentally and verbally every day. Something is wrong if doesn't.
Always thinks that he's right but when he's in the wrong, tries to make up to you. (Hahahaha...that's how I torture him during the cold war..Muahahahaha)
Good cook and takes good care of house. Hihi..
Super long winded.
Super bossy. Very similar to a controlling ahjumma. Likes to scold me.
Likes to correct me and drill moral values into me. So super like a mother.
Wish him happiness and achieve his dreams.
Conclusion: "Hate to be stuck here with him" Lol!!
Last physio block over. The end?
Had the last of physio block. One word - Errrr.....
Seriously, passing 2 seems kinda hard for me now. I really hope everything will be ok and not like the previous block where I just lacked 1 point from passing. If it's like that, I think I would jump off Charles Bridge already.
Okay, of course I won't do that kind of stupid stuff. But still, I would bang my head on the wall. And again, it's just a way of saying.
Finally, all the small tests are over except for the stupid biochem standing in the way. But still, i can finally start preparing for my final physio already.
Going to be hell of studying cause obviously before this, I didn't work very hard and so have to like work like 1000 times more to be able to finish on time. Best part is, my exam is less than a month away. Yay!! Obviously, I'm gonna be dead.
Ok, I probably shouldn't activate any stress mode now cause Professor Kittnar said that stress will cause hyperglycaemia and elevation of lipid level in the blood which of course will stick to the wall and therefore, increase the chance of getting arteriosclerosis. Lol!!
So, conclusion, no stress, work hard, go jogging and live healthy. Lol!!
Seriously, passing 2 seems kinda hard for me now. I really hope everything will be ok and not like the previous block where I just lacked 1 point from passing. If it's like that, I think I would jump off Charles Bridge already.
Okay, of course I won't do that kind of stupid stuff. But still, I would bang my head on the wall. And again, it's just a way of saying.
Finally, all the small tests are over except for the stupid biochem standing in the way. But still, i can finally start preparing for my final physio already.
Going to be hell of studying cause obviously before this, I didn't work very hard and so have to like work like 1000 times more to be able to finish on time. Best part is, my exam is less than a month away. Yay!! Obviously, I'm gonna be dead.
Ok, I probably shouldn't activate any stress mode now cause Professor Kittnar said that stress will cause hyperglycaemia and elevation of lipid level in the blood which of course will stick to the wall and therefore, increase the chance of getting arteriosclerosis. Lol!!
So, conclusion, no stress, work hard, go jogging and live healthy. Lol!!
Just a mixture of thinking
As I off the lights of my room, it just suddenly dawned on me how the normal size room seems bigger all of a sudden. Then, i thought of my friends who are studying in Malaysia, staying hostel and all. Then, again, I realised, the price I have to pay compared to them. And again I realised, how I'm not staying in a school's compound but rather staying in an apartment. In overseas. When you think about all these, you'll suddenly realise, it's quite surprising how things turned out to be.
With the days getting longer, and I just lay on my bed and staring at the ceiling, suddenly I realise, how far am I from other people that I used to live with. My family, friends, and all. It's like we all have our own things to do and life continues as it is. With everyone busy about their own things, living their own ways. It can be surprising how insignificant one is in this world.
Independence. When I realised my own situation, having to do a lot of things on my own. Having to get my life going on my own. Then I thought of how my friends are doing the same as well in Malaysia or anywhere else in the world. We become independent. That's how life's supposed to be I guess.
Went to look at one of my friend's photos with his girlfriend. At first I thought, so young already like that kind of development. Then again, I realised, I usually think that those kind of stuffs are only suitable for those who have reached over twenties. Then I realised, we ARE over twenty.
With the days getting longer, and I just lay on my bed and staring at the ceiling, suddenly I realise, how far am I from other people that I used to live with. My family, friends, and all. It's like we all have our own things to do and life continues as it is. With everyone busy about their own things, living their own ways. It can be surprising how insignificant one is in this world.
Independence. When I realised my own situation, having to do a lot of things on my own. Having to get my life going on my own. Then I thought of how my friends are doing the same as well in Malaysia or anywhere else in the world. We become independent. That's how life's supposed to be I guess.
Went to look at one of my friend's photos with his girlfriend. At first I thought, so young already like that kind of development. Then again, I realised, I usually think that those kind of stuffs are only suitable for those who have reached over twenties. Then I realised, we ARE over twenty.
"I also don't know why." ? What the hell!!!?
Seriously, I cannot take it any longer. Need a medium to let out my rage.
Shit!! Really damn her! Ok, that's not meant to be a curse. Just a way of expressing myself. Really, what the hell!!
Few days ago, S asked me, "Actually what happened between you and A?" One thing, this question is also very annoying and nonsense in a way. For one, this S was present every time things happened and she asked me this question? Fuah! And secondly, she also "kutuk" her at times and she asked me this question? Huh? At least, T in this situation is bit better. It's like I wanted to ask, "Oh my goodness, S, you really don't know?" How double face some people can be right?
Anyway, after the first question, S some more added, "When I asked A also, she also said she doesn't know why?" What the hell!! She doesn't know? OH MY GOODNESS!! She made as if like the whole situation I'm the one at fault. OH MY OH MY!! Hahahahaha....Seriously, what a joke! And for the super (pretend to be) naive S, I had to breakdown and analyse the situation for her.
So A doesn't know is it? Ok, here's the account for you, A, in case you ever read my blog.
1. You treated me like your servant when we were in KTT. Remember the times when you ordered me around and pointing this and that when I volunteered to clean the bathroom? (when you never washed for once)
2. Remember how you screamed at me when you found worms in the toilet as if it's my fault when to begin with, you're the one who caused it? Remember how you left your "thing" at the divider without wrapping it up and left for the holidays? Damn it!
3. Remember how you screamed at me and Shing Yee just because we didn't wake you up for your dinner when you didn't say anything and just went to sleep? For one thing, we're not your servant you know? Damn you!!
4. Remember how loud is your own voice? I'm sure you know it yourself that you made the neighbours actually complained? And at the same time, we were classified as the same category as you?
5. Remember how I smiled to you and you ignored during first year? For one thing, you're the one at fault and I took the initiative to be friendly with you and you gave me this kind of reaction. What the hell!!!
So are you still wondering why I didn't talk to you? For once, dig your heart out and look at it yourself? Or crack up your skull and rummage through your brain and think will you? What the hell!!!
If you still can't think or your mind is somehow crooked or ding dong ding dong, see how many friends left you already. Man!! Even when I didn't talk to you, but I can still hear about your bad stuffs from other people, so imagine how bad you are. Seriously...I also don't know what's the reason? Pathetic! That's right, you're damn right pathetic!! I pity you.
P/S: I have actually lessen my degree of foul language for this.
Shit!! Really damn her! Ok, that's not meant to be a curse. Just a way of expressing myself. Really, what the hell!!
Few days ago, S asked me, "Actually what happened between you and A?" One thing, this question is also very annoying and nonsense in a way. For one, this S was present every time things happened and she asked me this question? Fuah! And secondly, she also "kutuk" her at times and she asked me this question? Huh? At least, T in this situation is bit better. It's like I wanted to ask, "Oh my goodness, S, you really don't know?" How double face some people can be right?
Anyway, after the first question, S some more added, "When I asked A also, she also said she doesn't know why?" What the hell!! She doesn't know? OH MY GOODNESS!! She made as if like the whole situation I'm the one at fault. OH MY OH MY!! Hahahahaha....Seriously, what a joke! And for the super (pretend to be) naive S, I had to breakdown and analyse the situation for her.
So A doesn't know is it? Ok, here's the account for you, A, in case you ever read my blog.
1. You treated me like your servant when we were in KTT. Remember the times when you ordered me around and pointing this and that when I volunteered to clean the bathroom? (when you never washed for once)
2. Remember how you screamed at me when you found worms in the toilet as if it's my fault when to begin with, you're the one who caused it? Remember how you left your "thing" at the divider without wrapping it up and left for the holidays? Damn it!
3. Remember how you screamed at me and Shing Yee just because we didn't wake you up for your dinner when you didn't say anything and just went to sleep? For one thing, we're not your servant you know? Damn you!!
4. Remember how loud is your own voice? I'm sure you know it yourself that you made the neighbours actually complained? And at the same time, we were classified as the same category as you?
5. Remember how I smiled to you and you ignored during first year? For one thing, you're the one at fault and I took the initiative to be friendly with you and you gave me this kind of reaction. What the hell!!!
So are you still wondering why I didn't talk to you? For once, dig your heart out and look at it yourself? Or crack up your skull and rummage through your brain and think will you? What the hell!!!
If you still can't think or your mind is somehow crooked or ding dong ding dong, see how many friends left you already. Man!! Even when I didn't talk to you, but I can still hear about your bad stuffs from other people, so imagine how bad you are. Seriously...I also don't know what's the reason? Pathetic! That's right, you're damn right pathetic!! I pity you.
P/S: I have actually lessen my degree of foul language for this.
Amateur lyric writing first try - Goodbye
当你对我说 你愿意等我
我不知所措 只保持沉默
你因该不知道 因过去的回忆
若走入你怀里 代表不同意义
我的过去你都知道
You were the one who showed me how
To get to where I am now
渐渐的 你变得无可取代
惭愧的 那让我不停流泪的
也同样的没被取代
I don't want to tell a lie
So it's time to say goodbye
你为我做的 他对我做的
你大方宽容 跟他真不同
脑子总告诉我 因该向着你走
我心却告诉我 它还没让他走
请不要再对我好
应该对你自己好
只好残忍地说
拜托你离开我
我不知所措 只保持沉默
你因该不知道 因过去的回忆
若走入你怀里 代表不同意义
我的过去你都知道
You were the one who showed me how
To get to where I am now
渐渐的 你变得无可取代
惭愧的 那让我不停流泪的
也同样的没被取代
I don't want to tell a lie
So it's time to say goodbye
你为我做的 他对我做的
你大方宽容 跟他真不同
脑子总告诉我 因该向着你走
我心却告诉我 它还没让他走
请不要再对我好
应该对你自己好
只好残忍地说
拜托你离开我
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