Again indulging in helplessness and pain? Posted by Bubbly89 , Tuesday, November 16, 2010 at 1:25 PM, in

It's funny how I eventually could turn sober even though I started the day with full of joy and hope. Today, again, as always, I was going to class and suddenly the thought of not being able to proceed to third year brought me a sense of helplessness. I know I'm rather pathetic which makes me sick thinking about it. And how it's even sickening to be stucked in the situation with certain circumstances. It just feel so unfair!!!

And after my class while walking back to my apartment, a dreadful realization came over me. My left hip has started to have the similar pain as my right hip. For a moment, I stood there for a while as despair came over me. Oh shit, my right hip hasn't recovered yet and now I'm stucked with another pain in another side of my hip? What the hell!!!!

Totally.....I'm totally indulging myself in my despair and pain...Haih.....